About a week ago I realized that I had lost my temple recommend and I had a slight freak out. See, ever since I came back to the church the temple has literally been my safe haven. It’s helped to keep me strong. I felt lost knowing that I didn’t have it.  So I set up an interview to get a new temple recommend and as the questions were being asked to me I was overcome by the spirit and got emotional. I realized how far I’ve come in my testimony and journey within this church. There was a time in my life when I had zero testimony and wanted absolutely nothing to do with this church. I used to say “I will never get married in the temple, that’s not what I want for my life.” I was emotional because as I’ve made changes in my life I have gained a testimony and love for the gospel that is indescribable. I was reminded of the past and started thinking about all the sacrifices I’ve made to be where I am today, how much has changed in my life and how different I am.

A building I once I had no desire to attend has become my saving grace. The temple can help you to build your testimony and provide strength if you allow it to. If you haven’t had the chance to attend the temple, that’s okay. It’s something each individual has to work towards. If there was only thing I could share with people it would be to trust in the atonement process and have the temple as a goal. There was a point in my life that I was not worthy of attending the temple. And that was okay, because temple attendance was something I was slowly striving for. It does not happen over night and going through the atonement process takes time, it’s intimidating and leaves you feeling vulnerable. But it also will strengthen you and can change your life for the better if you allow it to. If you think it’s too late or you are too far gone, you are not. Heavenly Father still loves you no matter what your past may hold. As you strive to be temple worthy, even if it’s just a goal, you will be blessed.

Sometimes I feel like people will never read my blog, or when they do they’ll think that I’m a joke. But my blog is a place for me to be vulnerable. It is a place that I want to share my passions, my beliefs and my life. In a way I look at my blog as a means to serving a mission. I may not inspire everyone, but I strive to inspire and make a difference in just one persons life. If you are reading this I hope you know how much you mean to me, I hope you know that you can confide in me, I hope you know that I’m just a girl who’s striving to inspire others. When the custom jewelry company @darling.co reached out to me, I knew exactly what word I wanted engraved on my necklace. You can use code ‘LEXI10’ at checkout for a 10% discount code for the next two weeks. What are you striving to do? 

XOXO-

Lex